Hi my friends. Before you proceed on reading my views on my Hindu religion, let me tell little information about myself.
The truth is I lost my faith in religion and God when I was 10 years old. Being one of only 3 Hindus in a school full of Malays and being raised far from any other Indian, I had very little knowledge about my religion. I was always mocked by my Muslim friends. My other 2 Indian friends gave in to them. 1 started reading Quran and the other was half lunatic even at that age, he doesn't know what he was doing himself. I had a lot of questions, I asked my elder brothers and sisters and even my parents. None of them was able to explain anything to me up to my satisfaction. I was always hushed to hide thier inability to explain.
Slowly, I started to loose my faith. I started to believe that all rituals are craps, made by humans to make a living from the poor people. According to my mother, I was not able to speak until I was 5. So my grandfather prayed to Lord Murugan and promised that I will pay my respect by taking a small vel on my tongue when I'm ready. Since I started to loose my faith, my mother opted to ask me to do it on my cheek instead. I fasted accordingly and took the vel but I couldn't get into trance as I should be. This made me loose more faith.
After my 13th birthday, I started to question myself if religion is fake, what make the universe and how live force came.
Since I am living in a multi racial country, I had the advantage in learning other religions. I started learning Islam and its way of living in my school but it still couldn't answer a lot of my questions.
During that time a group of church missionary used to come to my house every month to preach us. My mother is a very generous woman, so she never turned them down. They used to preach me and always leave books for me to read on including bible. I always have a lot of questions but none of them was able to explain the descrepancies with thier religion and sceintific facts.
I knew there is God but I just couldn't trust the religions. My search continued. I have read so many books until I lost count. My desire to know more never lessened. Finally with internet I was able to access more books than I ever could. I was able to read books on Hinduism translated into english.
I began to understand more on my own religion like I never did before. I realised that all rituals and practices done by my family have deep meanings but my family was practising them blindly. As my family many more people doing the same.
Recently I explained my views about Hinduism in one of the internet group. Suprissed and overwhelmed with the response I decided to create the blog.
In this blog I will from time to time will try to explain my views and understanding about religion, ritual and cultural practices. I at no time claim to be the fully qualified person in religion practices. All articles written here are merely my understandings on the said topic. I must inform you that some of them might sound offensive to others.
One of my reasons of writing these articles is for me to learn more about Hinduism. I welcome open and honest opinions. Please do critise my articles by giving referral links so I can learn more.
Readers and responders are reminded to keep the language clean as many young minds too will read these comments. I will try not to delete or edit the comments as much as I can but some sensitive issues or words might need censorship.
The truth is I lost my faith in religion and God when I was 10 years old. Being one of only 3 Hindus in a school full of Malays and being raised far from any other Indian, I had very little knowledge about my religion. I was always mocked by my Muslim friends. My other 2 Indian friends gave in to them. 1 started reading Quran and the other was half lunatic even at that age, he doesn't know what he was doing himself. I had a lot of questions, I asked my elder brothers and sisters and even my parents. None of them was able to explain anything to me up to my satisfaction. I was always hushed to hide thier inability to explain.
Slowly, I started to loose my faith. I started to believe that all rituals are craps, made by humans to make a living from the poor people. According to my mother, I was not able to speak until I was 5. So my grandfather prayed to Lord Murugan and promised that I will pay my respect by taking a small vel on my tongue when I'm ready. Since I started to loose my faith, my mother opted to ask me to do it on my cheek instead. I fasted accordingly and took the vel but I couldn't get into trance as I should be. This made me loose more faith.
After my 13th birthday, I started to question myself if religion is fake, what make the universe and how live force came.
Since I am living in a multi racial country, I had the advantage in learning other religions. I started learning Islam and its way of living in my school but it still couldn't answer a lot of my questions.
During that time a group of church missionary used to come to my house every month to preach us. My mother is a very generous woman, so she never turned them down. They used to preach me and always leave books for me to read on including bible. I always have a lot of questions but none of them was able to explain the descrepancies with thier religion and sceintific facts.
I knew there is God but I just couldn't trust the religions. My search continued. I have read so many books until I lost count. My desire to know more never lessened. Finally with internet I was able to access more books than I ever could. I was able to read books on Hinduism translated into english.
I began to understand more on my own religion like I never did before. I realised that all rituals and practices done by my family have deep meanings but my family was practising them blindly. As my family many more people doing the same.
Recently I explained my views about Hinduism in one of the internet group. Suprissed and overwhelmed with the response I decided to create the blog.
In this blog I will from time to time will try to explain my views and understanding about religion, ritual and cultural practices. I at no time claim to be the fully qualified person in religion practices. All articles written here are merely my understandings on the said topic. I must inform you that some of them might sound offensive to others.
One of my reasons of writing these articles is for me to learn more about Hinduism. I welcome open and honest opinions. Please do critise my articles by giving referral links so I can learn more.
Readers and responders are reminded to keep the language clean as many young minds too will read these comments. I will try not to delete or edit the comments as much as I can but some sensitive issues or words might need censorship.
'Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya':
My respects for Vasudeva, the Supreme Lord.
Dvadasaksara-mantran(SB: C4:8-54)
2 comments:
can you share the link as well about rituals and practices...thank you
Most of my post are derived from my understanding of Hinduism. As you already know I read from so many sources but I do not concluded 1 source is the ultimate truth, instead after reading from a few sources I'll try to step out and take a holistic view to understand the bigger picture.
These comments are from that particular view and its difficult for me to point out to 1 or 2 links to give you the entire picture.
Anyway I'll try my best to accomodate your need wherever I can.
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